I've noticed.

That things have been changing since the moment I gave up on someone. I only gave up so that I could have a chance with someone else. That chance was taken by some other girl, and I was stuck in the same situation again.

Then I noticed that there are others out there. Plenty others. I’m not the only one who has gone through what I’ve been through, unfortunately.

I just need to wait things out, and stop rushing things, and pushing things onto people u_u

I’m a wreck. I’m fixing myself. I’m learning about myself. I’m living.

“I don’t want you to be forced into me, just because I’m into you.”

It's not as bad as you think.

I'll keep my chin up.
Even if it means breaking my neck.


"Trust me, I can breathe just fine without you."

Sometimes I think

That the things we do, we do for more than the reasons we give.
Like if I were to say I'm going to start talking to someone just because I "want to know them", well, that could be perceived onto various levels of "getting to know them". We're never giving a full on point reason to anything.


I say things like, "just cuz' I can".
Which, of course, is never enough of a reason for anyone.

But, what is enough?

I'm such a hipster.

I don’t show my face in photos’.

I can’t get enough of manatee racket.

&i post shit like ▲’s.

I'll shut you down.

I’m just another coward.

I can’t call you out with something to back it all up.

I won’t throw punches because I’m far to weak to even ball up a fist.

I can’t fend for myself, not the way I used to.

Just don’t shoot me down just yet.

Please don’t.

I went back to where I felt most comfortable.

My shell.
I threw away my guns, I am no vulnerable.

Just don't shoot me down. I have a lot more to say than that pitiful goodbye that you expect from me.

So much more.

Are you ready?
I sure hope so.

Don't Forget.

We're only human.
We lie by nature.
We feel with full force, not matter how much we tell ourselves not to. Or how much we try not to.

Our emotions sometimes get the best of us.
Sometimes, they bring out the worst in us.

I'll be honest.

I'm losing myself.

I left.

He didn't notice. That's good, I suppose.
I'm acting like a child. Deleting his number, and hers as well.
Both of them. I wonder if she knew what was going through my mind while she told me about their conversations.
I'm glad she told me about them speaking to one another, and I honestly didn't mind it until she said she is a home wrecker.
That's when I changed my view on everything. I went off into my negative state of mind, in which I haven't been in since middle school.

It's been so long since I've seen this type of betrayal.
To hear the types of lies she spoke, and to hear how her voice said something completely different.
I never spoke to him. He never called. Hardly ever texted me.
She speaks to him. He calls her. He texts her daily.

I think that's what bothered me the most, to know that everyone got along with him, without even trying.
No matter what I did, we never got along as great as I thought we would.

I wanted more. Something I couldn't have. It led me to hope for more, and expect more.
When I didn't get what I was hoping for, it slapped me back into reality.

I realized that I trusted the wrong girl.
I hoped for something I knew I wasn't going to get.
I let someone in, someone I didn't even know.

I'm glad I learned just enough from this.
Just enough, is enough for me.

loljkjk

It's this season that makes me wish that I had someone to cuddle with.



LOLjkjk. More blankets for me C:<

Hello My Name is Gina.

I'm starting a new life as of today.